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Mother Dearest is actively working on getting me and my sibling a therapist but i dont know why she decided to take action about this only /after/ we visited our older sister in the hospital... Little Fucked Up... But Okay
#like the last time she sent the both of us to therapy in the same timeframe#was when she thought our dad leaving was getting to us#when yes i needed therapy#but not for that#i needed it for School#that first therapist wasnt bad but it didnt last long enough to Work for me#so alas#then more recently this one was bc i reached out to Mother Dearest#that i needed one and so we saw One didnt like him#then we saw another a year or so later and i liked her! i had a couple sessions w her! it was great Untillllllll we jus#Stopped#and i think it was smth to do w insuranse and then my mother didnt tell me when that was solved and when i could communicate w the therapis#again until way after#she was pregnant btw the therapist not my mother#and its been like 2 years now so i bet shes no longer pregnant#yapper#<- tag for personal things like this and oversharing#the point of this btw#is that she has an appointment with Our Therapist (bc he likes meeting w the parents first regardless if the kids are well Kids? i think)#((he also sounded Really Nice from my mothers story abt smth i dont rmemer what anymore))#(( also aAlso i asked Mother Dearest if hes queer friendly and she said she purposefully went out to look for queer friendly therapists so#woo !))#im jus wondering/scared about how soon or how far my first appt will be w him and if its in person or online or#uagh#anyways
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no more romance. romance is canceled. tell me about your warden/hawke/inquisitor's best friend and any info you want to add about their dynamic 🖐
#and by “romance is canceled” i mean that i have been writing so much angsty romance lately that i need something to balance it out#dragon age#dragon age origins#dragon age: origins#dao#dragon age 2#da2#dragon age inquisiton#dai#dragon age: inquisition#hero of ferelden#champion of kirkwall#the inquisitor#inquisitor#i have way too many ocs to do this with so i'll go with kinera#he was close with his entire companion group (minus wynne and oghren) during the fifth blight#but he was especially close with sten and morrigan. sten kind of accidentally cracked kinera's egg and#kinera was fascinated by morrigan because shes a mage outside of the circle#and in dai kinera was initally close with solas– until it really kicked in how much solas disliked the dalish and how much#he viewed kinera as being an “exception” when kinera already felt like an outcast due to mostly growing up outside of a clan bc he was take#to a circle.#healing sessions for the anchor got Really tense after that. and then morrigan showed up and kinera was#just yippie yippie!! because very briefly he had alistair leliana and morrigan all back together again
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#art#digital art#ffxiv#ff14#illustration#elidibus#themis#moths#tw: insects#posting art at 3 am yet again cuz i worked until midnight rip#the fact that i got jumpscared by the eyes when i zoomed out after working on details#like way to go ya played yourself
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the whole "jason rules crime alley and none of the other bats are allowed there!!1!" thing is so funny like. tim LITERALLY lives in the theater where bruce's parents died,
#rimi talks#sorry. thought about tim doing that again. what is WRONG with him kfjshakjdshfkjd#WITHOUT EVEN TELLING BRUCE UNTIL AFTER HED ALREADY DONE IT TOO.#TIMOTHY. WHY.#this is the other thing abt why i just dont like seeing jtodd in fanwork#whenever he appears like 99% of the time its in a way that is directly contradictory to actual comics#the 1% of people who actually read the comics and write him in such a way? fine great awesome!!#however i still am filtering that bitch out because hes kind of a catch-all for the most annoying batfanon tropes.#because. yknow. theres no other tags to filter out bc they dont Fucking tag it#alas. oh well. anyways can we go back to going hey tim what is wrong with you#because for real i think he got off way too easy for this one.#forget identity reveals i want the core four sleepover where tim's apartment gets its lore reveal#give me cassie doing such a dramatic spit take that she gets ice cream on the ceiling. picks up tim like a weasel. and goes WHY???#and hes just like. idk seemed like the right thing to do :)#tim
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ok i swear i'm not going to talk about my breakup forever but the thing that just keeps bothering me:
i know that not getting what you need in a relationship is a COMPLETELY valid reason to end it but also. i feel like having a very vulnerable moment where i opened up about my struggles with intimacy and being relieved that i didn't have to keep doing things i wasn't comfortable with, then being dumped a YEAR later because of my lack of intimacy. is something i should be allowed to be very hurt by???
#ramble#sorry i'm currently in a phase of 'of course this happened' and 'oh i deserve this because i didn't give him what he wanted'#like he knew i was grey ace since the start. and he let it go on for SO long after i said i might be vaguely aro as well#if that's a dealbreaker for you bc of your love language then FINE but NIP IT IN THE BUD#he said he put it off because he didn't want to hurt my feelings but it only hurt me MORE#like you're an adult. grow the fuck up and communicate like one#holding your negative feelings in hoping somebody notices you're hiding them is what TEENAGERS do#and also i told him VERBATIM: i didn't think anyone would ever love me because i'm not comfortable with xyz. and he just confirmed that#idk i still feel like i'm being selfish because how could i expect someone to be in a relationship with me when i can't give them anything#also tmi but it's not like we did NOTHING. we still held hands/cuddled/were close. he just didn't have his tongue down my throat anymore#so obviously i'm assuming by 'missing affection' he just meant sex and as an ace person that just fucking sucks#also oh my god i HATED how much he would imply we were going to have sex. i would have to keep SAYING 'i don't like doing this'#he always spoke like it was inevitably going to happen and it didn't click how GROSS i felt about it until recently#also ALSO not to go there but i never told him WHY i struggle with it (it's sensory issues)#and like. what if something had happened to me that made it hard for me and i just wasn't ready to tell him. and then he did this#again sorry to overshare this is still just a lot for me and i have no idea if i'm being unreasonable#if you're ace and in a relationship please let me know bc i'm starting to think it'll end this way every single time
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Reuniting with a distorted past.
Extra:(New personality tested gone wrong)
wanted to play with rin living in the aftermath aus aswell and had these drawings laying around to share so yay
Panel 1: Was buried alive.
Comic 1: Who are you supposed to be?
new friends
Comic 2: Misguided protection.
obito still sensing the warning signs of rin losing her temper. anyways they proceeded to be dragged into the ocean by rin like some sea monster
Comic 3: Finding out (Now what will you do?)
obito is harshly brought back from his delusions because now its not just kushina but rin too who he needs to ripped out the tail beast from
#naruto#naruto fanart#kakashi hatake#rin nohara#obito uchiha#naruto sukea#fanart#art#my art#sketch#drawing#digital art#hope i can add something new and if not may i shall add fuel to the fire for rin!! :)#So Rin loses ALL of her memories forever (kinda)#the only thing that remains for sure is the feeling of missing something that she'll never reach it again#she's alone and is left to roam directionless until she meets an elderly civilian that is also alone#she stays with her for a year+ but she passes away. But Rin with her new identity decides to walk forward (with love comes pain#but to love at all was the greatest thing to her.) She cherishes her new memories and won't let it stop her from moving on#inbetween this time frame she meets isobu in her mind after he gains enough form within her (who is also without memories)#Now WAY LATER she meets Sukea who looks like he's about to panic and she tries to help (which uh doesnt work too well)#but then Sukea joins her on her travels (sending minato an letter through his summons of rin being alive and forgetting the mission)#they both wander around (he doesnt know how to bring up their past) but then obito appears (always at the wrong times)#At first glance he's pissed but then realizes that this isnt fake AND its both the worse thing yet best thing to ever happen#Now Rin thinks she made two new friends who give her feelings of warmth but they both also reminded her of something old she thinks#PS Minato and Kushina are freaking out back in the village but can't do anything about it (Obito hasn't acted on his plans yet so yes)
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hey i dont go here but jayce's speech about viktor in s2e9 isn't him saying 'u should never have tried to heal yourself, you were perfect the way u were x3' it was him saying that viktor's physical health never made him any less beautiful, never made him any less important, never made him any LESS, period. he wasn't saying viktor didn't need to pursue a cure for his ills like come on his motivation to invent hextech was to help people. to cure disease. viktor's first and foremost among them.
he said what he said because it was the thing viktor craved to hear most in his life, and that is why those were the words that punched through his defences even as the machine herald: jayce loved him wholly and unconditionally, healthy or ill, good or bad, human or inhuman. he would always be loved just the same.
#jayvik#arcane#like i said i dont go here but u cant slander my boy or that moment i wont stand for it#and yes as someone who is chronically ill i would know if it was ableist LOL (yes yes media is subjective but come the fuck on ppl i beg)#viktor's reaction to seeing inside jayce's mind really cinches it#he had fully given up on ever being loved in that way#romantic or platonic or some secret third thing whatever he had written it ALL off#so he is visibly shaken when he realizes that jayce LOVES (capital italicized underlined bold font) him and everything he is and ever was#jayce's love for viktor literally saves the entire world (also ekko W)#anyway if u wanted my onion i would say viktor didn't allow himself to consciously love jayce in return until that moment#like his need to have jayce be near him and work with him and approve of his actions even AFTER he loses his humanity is very telling#but i do think a lot of that was sort of his subconscious acting out deeply repressed desires#then when jayce confesses he finally understands (it was always about them)#anyway idk when we'll see another relationship like this in media again!!! holy shit!!!!!!!!!!
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bby floyd sleeping with their dad's vest
#drew this back in january and i just (again) realized i never posted it#cuz i wanted to draw another pic to go with it after i was done with this one and i had a realization#a pic of their mom and JD just watching them in the doorway with sad smiles#bc for a second Tulip thought she saw her husband with the way Floyd's and Clay's hair are layered and Floyd wearing the vest#😭😭😢#my art#trolls#dreamworks trolls#trolls floyd#floyd is 11 here. the baby#trolls clay#trolls spruce#kinda#brozone#young brozone#i used to sleep like that as a little kid#just grasping the corner of a blanket or pillow#i headcanon they shared a bed. jd was there too until they got too big to fit all four. so then jd slept on the couch
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Hi, Howdy! Hey! I really love your novel!! I got a little confused by the 4 day, may maybe you help me please? who is it? why we got the bad end staying the night in Ren’s apartment and he disappear of the home screen? I can’t understand “unset memory” game, sorry if I wrote smth wrong or smth sounds rude, I swear that I didn’t mean it if happened, I’m really a fan of the novel, I’ve been playing the game since day 1 or 2 I guess, probably day 1, english isn’t my first language, but I tried lol
⌞♥⌝ I hope you don't mind me answering these as bullet points!! ^^
"It" will be revealed later in the game! So I won't reveal too much right now.
You can only get the Dead End in Day 4 by staying at Ren's apartment — the rest of your choices before that don't matter. I'd also pay closer attention to the black smoke and Ren's reaction towards it!
Ren disappears from the home screen because he promised to help the player out (and stop them from getting the Dead End again). Try replaying the game again from the beginning for a surprise!
"Unsent Memories" was another visual novel (initially being written by @10chimes / @unsentmemory, though the project has since been dropped and handed back to me /pos) and is set in the same universe as 14 Days With You. Its storyline and characters are completely separate from 14DWY, so you don't have to worry about them while playing 14DWY.
#I don't think a lot of people know this but River was originally my OC lmao#Obviously BEFORE Jesse picked him up and turned him into an entirely different character /pos#We originally planned for Riv and Ren to have a Billy and Stu dynamic; except River would pretend to be a himbo—#— The same way Ren would pretend to be some Normal Empathetic Guy™️ kjgskg#River was also going to be a lovesick serial killer who incapacitated Bunny so that they'd stay with & depend on him forever#Also because Jesse and I wanted to have a ''same production factory; different yandere'' kind of vibe with Riv and Ren (and their dynamic)#Like... Ren puts Angel above himself and craves THEIR satisfaction whereas River cares about himself and prioritises HIS own satisfaction#Ren would hit his best friend (River) with a car if it meant keeping Angel happy & by his side forever#River would hit Bunny with a car if it meant keeping them by his side forever (thus making him happy)#But!! After everything that's happened in the yandere community; Jesse (understandably) wanted to get away from that kind of environment#So he's since dropped Unsent Memories and hasn't really got any plans to work on it again or return to da yan vn circle#I'm also continuing to write 14DWY the way it was originally planned (with 2017!River only getting a brief cameo to serve up some lore </3)#—But I'm lowkey holding out just in case Jesse ever considers returning hehe :3 I like their version of River and I wanna do him justice#Until then though?? I'll yearnfully clutch my locket and wait for my lover to return from war.... (she has a literal 9-5 job now) /hj /p#GKJSDG I scrolled up and??? NOT ME RANTING IN THE TAGS AGAIN?????????? WHY DO I UNINTENTIONALLY YAP SO MUCH#I will 🤫🤐 now#💌 — answered.#💖 — 14 days with queue.#��� — shut up sai.#to be tagged later#weird0nerd
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more doodles of this thing that haunts my brain and his boyfriend
More doodles centered around pre-godhood shenanigans under cut to keep post short for the sanity of others lol
tha legally mandated Only 1 bed trope ...
getting the old uniform out!
annnnd the obilgatory sad bonus U u U
#great god grove#ggg click clack#ggg thespius#ggg lovestory#i hope its a little clearer older clicky is balding as i intended lol#these two drive me insane a lot#in my heart they ran away together on a whim to pave their own way and they DID it. it took a while but they did it :]#...do you think in another universe click clack didnt make it to ascending and their story became one about tragic love? <- the evil in me#also context for the last comic: my hc is clicky always wore a suit until thespius ascended and switched to lower maintenance clothes#because right after thespie's ascension he got real depressed about their relationship and the clothing choice kinda stuck#so its thespius asking click clack to put on his suit again because he thinks heees sooo cute in it#(and def not also because hes aware so much time has passed and he wants to ignore it. look hes in his old outfit yay no horrors here!)#<- lies#also the wedding comment is specifically because like. imagine always joking about that w someone you have a crush on#then u become immortal#and realize ur relationships kinda doomed unless he also ascends#and u watch this guy u love get older and not really do anything romantic with anyone and kinda stay isolated#one half is happy your heart isnt broken cause theres still a chance he likes you#OTHER HALF ABSOLUTELY DISTRAUGHT CUZ UR THE GOD OF LOVE AND YOUR BESTEST PARTNER FRIEND IS ALONE (and not aromantic)#coughs. anyway.#thats a lot of tags sorry#sorry to the people who read these lol
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Thinking about Matt and Neil going on their own country tour together during Matt's last year spring break where Matt has a big signing bonus for his team.
Matt: "Hey Andrew, you know how you and Neil have those cute couple road trips during school breaks?" Andrew: "We're not-"
Matt: "So I'm taking him this time and we're going to have our own cute couple road trip. Bye!"
What follows is Matt and Neil's cross country trip trying out all these fancy food places because Neil's relationship with food is still weird and Matt wants Neil to enjoy nice things.
#B-plot is Andrew trailing after them because#Fuck you Matt cute couple road trips are his and Neil's thing#The other Foxes keep getting in Andrew's way#Until he finally catches up to them at a restaurant in California#And Andrew hears Neil go 'I gotta take Andrew here!'#And Matt goes 'you've said that about every place we've gone.'#And Andrew loses them again because FUCK#Matt Boyd#Neil Josten#Matt&Neil#AFTG#Some Andreil in the tags
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I like bloodweave. Okay. But I DON'T like the version of them in fanfic where Astarion is a dick and Gale is like. Whining and pleading for him to be emotionally vulnerable (or just. Nice to him) prior to the relationship being established. Because that is just not accurate. Gale needs the player to express interest in him during his weave-teaching scene before he even considers hitting on them properly. Gale is entirely resigned to his fate and needs someone else to pull him away from it. Gale only starts being sweet and romantic and devoted after you accept his love confession and give him hope for the future. Gale says fuck all and then slinks away to cry privately if you break up with him.
Like he isn't chasing after people lmao. He isn't dropping to his knees and crying about anything much less this dickhead he met a week ago. He is overwhelmingly passive about literally everything personal to him up to and including his own death (provided there are no casualties/there is a good reason) until after the player expresses that they care about him. Astarion is not doing that in any of these fics.
Like Gale is friendly and a dork and doesn't wanna get murdered but he fully has a suicide plan. He thought the artefacts would help him survive but he didn't believe he'd ever truly live again. If Gale confessed and Astarion said/did like one (1) mean thing afterward Gale's romance is closed off forever. He's wandering into the forest to cry. He's killing himself immediately. His fragile ego and self worth can't take it. You have to understand that when we joke about him being pathetic it's not bc he's like. Sopping wet and chasing people down and begging for a scrap of attention. It's because he craves affection but would literally rather die than ask or even hope for it until someone else forces that hope back into his serotonin-deficient tadpole brain.
#i feel like u can tell when a bloodweave fic is written by an astarion stan vs a gale stan lol#because the astarion stans are just using gale as a vessel for like. their sopping wet meow meow#who screams and cries until astarion becomes emotionally vulnerable with them#which gale would not do. realistic bloodweave is astarion tries to fuck him in act 1 and he refuses because of the orb#and then astarion is like “boo what the fuck. change of plans” and gale is like “okay” and they never speak of it again lol#anyway#please god the gale characterisation in this place. half of you make him the soppiest most pathetic loser and the other half make him evil#he's not ACTUALLY a loser. when i joke about it the reason its funny is because its not true#hes just a regular guy with depression lol. hes not out here debasing himself begging for some old twink to care abt him#bg3#gale dekarios#bloodweave#gale of waterdeep#does this make sense. i havent slept#i just mean that if you want gale to be sappy he needs to have like. prior assurance that his feelings are reciprocated#because if he doesnt have that and astarion is a dick to him he WILL just give up on the relationship#like hes not hunting people down after they deliberately upset him. i see so many fics where they create tension by lime#*like#having astarion openly fuck someone else after establishing a sort-of relationship with gale. for the drama#like hey. gale fully dumps you if you do that in game!! you have no way to convince him not to. he will dump astarion for that permanently
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for anyone who has ever seen someone claim pansexual was coined on social media by teenagers in the early 2000s, the 2010s, and even in the past few years, and believed it or wondered if it’s true, or known it’s not true and been annoyed by the misinformation, this article is for you!
after listing out all of the claims i’ve seen, i succinctly debunk them by laying out a brief overview of pansexual’s history dating back to the 1960s, both as a term generally indicating universal appeal/inclusion and a term indicating sexual freedom/attraction to all genders. i include a look at pansexual’s use specifically within queer spaces, with a focus on bisexual spaces, as well.
i also touch briefly on omnisexual and polysexual existing in similar contexts to pansexual dating back to the 1960s. and finally, i discuss a little bit about how when, where, and by whom a label is created doesn’t determine the validity or usefulness of it, because these claims come with the implication that new labels, labels created by kids, and labels originating on social media aren’t legit forms of queer expression and identification.
happy pan week! 🥰💗💛💙
#pansexual#pansexuality#pan pride#pan positivity#pan week#medium#text#mine#and as always please remember that queer people have always played with language#and tweaked it until it worked for us and utilized what we felt seen by#and filled in the gaps with our own creations where we didn’t feel understood and left the rest#queer people expressing themselves in a way that feels authentic to them is always a good thing#truly don’t understand why the when where and by whom a label was created would matter more than someone feeling seen by a label#because while we’re talking about new labels made by kids online with regard to pansexual#so much of queer language has been reclaimed or repurposed from completely different (and often bigoted) origins#and people barely even acknowledge it. but suddenly the origin is crucial when it’s a label folks have a vendetta against#and listen. learning history is fun and important but we aren’t beholden to it.#we can have new meanings and uses and completely new words!!! it’s fine!!!! it’s not that serious!!!#maybe one day pansexual will fall completely out of use and people will find a different word to express it or something similar#and that’d be fine. and maybe one day after that someone will come across an old post about pansexuality and decide it speaks to them#and it will all happen again. and that will be fine. language is like that. self-identification is like that.#y’all take all of the fun and joy and excitement out of finding or creating language that perfectly captures how we feel#and then finding a community of people who feel the same way we do#y'all focus so much on the parts that don't matter. find your language find your people that's what matters#not finding something to use against someone else who feels seen by a word you don't feel seen by#anyways. pansexual isn't new. stop spreading lies because you care too much about things that don't matter
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#narureno#narumi gen#ichikawa reno#kn8#my art#i forgot to flip the canvas back around after finishing this so reno's hair is the wrong way around GRRRR#it is how it is now.#sick in the head today over the thought of badly hurt unconscious reno being carried to the medics by narumi#and narumi getting kicked out of the infirmary because they need space to work they cant have him stand around in the way#narumi worried sick if they'll be able to fix him#until ofc he finally gets to see reno up and on his feet again#even if he still looks very banged up ksjdhfsh#beating this art with a stick it was giving me so much trouble
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The one thing I still haven't seen anyone talking about when mentioning Xie Lian's gigantic statue that Hua Cheng carved when he was inside the kiln is that... Well, He Xuan also went into the kiln... years after Hua Cheng came out I'm pretty sure... Do you see where I'm going with this????
#what was He Xuan thinking#when after going through a wretched life bc of a god#after fighting his way through Mount Tonglu to become stronger and get revenge#and he's finally inside the kiln where he has to go through horrors beyond our comprehension for about a month#and skyscraper Xie Lian is just#THERE#staring at him#(well not actually STARING bc i'm pretty sure the eyes were closed#but you know what i mean#A GOD made him company during all that#what has He Xuan NOT had to endure at this point lmfao#nO WAIT I MADE IT EVEN FUNNIER#CAN YOU IMAGINE HE NEVER FINDS OUT WHO THE GOD INSIDE THE KILN IS NOR THAT HUA CHENG MADE IT UNTIL HE ACTUALLY MEETS XIE LIAN#just seeing xie lian for the first time and going 'wait. i. i recognize that face' LMFAOOOOO#no nononono wait#bc i mean if hx was spying for hc and waiting for the moment xl appeared again surely hc would have shown what xl looked like#so he could know him when he found him#did. did hx go 'hmmmm so is there any reason this dude looks like that statue inside the kiln or... wait wait did. did hc carve it???? did#he MAKE it????' and just. decided that it was Not His Problem and didn't ask???#did they have a conversation about the god statue inside the kiln#the Possibilities are ENDLESS#i am so sorry for putting the goddamn bible in the tags holy shit#i ramble#tgcf#mxtx#mxtx tgcf#hua cheng#xie lian#he xuan#black water sinking ships
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with this being the preview for the next ep, and the beginning of gear 5 luffy-vs-lucci fight,
I went to reread one piece chapter 1070, and can't wait even more to see this fight animated in the next few eps! so much loony tunes and goofs ahead!
endlessly spinning luffy:
giant luffy trying to eat-attack lucci:
and of course, creating those funny glasses out of his fluffy hair while he makes a slingshot out of himself:
I can't wait to see this all in color!
#goofy gear 5 luffy save me#one piece#hes a monster. hes a silly little guy. hes almost an eldritch horror with limitless stomach but hes got the biggest heart#hes so silly but so stubborn and wants to fight for the people who gave him food but he will fight in his own way to have fun with it#one piece ch 1070#monkey d. luffy#monkey d luffy#luffy#one piece spoilers#egghead arc#egghead spoilers#sun god nika#gear 5#mine#gif:op manga#(tho im still curious about aftereffects/consequences of using gear 5. beside the rapid aging until he gets to eat again)#i hope he will have some talks with either vegapunk or the elbaf giants after they escape egghead.. to finally learn who even is nika#its interesting to be caught up with the manga. the end of egghead could be so soon but also so far away OTL
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